I have all motor sickness..any one else have this?

I got into Honda's in 99 and had a pretty mild car for two years. Did a sohc vtec swap in my CRX...then put some juice on it (75 shot). Car ran well but I wanted more...and I wanted the speed all the time. So I tore out my motor and I built the D. I got 152whp or so out of it and it was great right. Well I have some friends and the one guy has like 430whp in his fwd DSM. I mean his car hauls ass right so I start thinking about going turbo. Then I get caught up and build an Ls/vtec...all motor again..its fast and my friends are impressed...I am still thinking about turbo. Well the LS ended up bending a rod right under the pin, so I make it B20vtec....N/A again...start thinkin about turbo. Well then a few deals went by and I decided to put the b20 in a hatch I had...sold it and built an H22 hatch mild (didn't have much loot). So I sell it and I am thinking turbo for sure...my lust for the Kseries starts here. So I am thinking turbo the Kseries for damn sure! Then I start to see all this all motor potential and now I'm fu**ed again! I am never going to own a freaking 350+hp freakin Honda in my damn life because I am stupid over all motor!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! For all the money I am spending making my CRX with a K20a happen I could have a 600hp bseries in this thing....what the hell is wrong with me. Is this happening to anyone else? I feel like my life in Honda's is being held back because of my sickness for all motor. I absolutely love the simplicity and the sound...the natural beast. No opportunity for someone I spank on to say "well yeah you won...your turbo'd...or yeah you won..why dont' you run me off the juice". For real...should I force myself to put an end to this...has this happened to anyone else? I mean some of you who have been in this for a while and have had several different setups...did you go big on a motor or stick with all motor?